Just for today I will not gamble and with that I will be happy, one day at a time is the only way I can do it, there is a lot of help and support around here to help you get through the day gamble free. I know for me „barriers“ have been a big issue in the past (meaning self banning and having a lot of money on me), barriers are a massive help in recovery along with so much more, I wish you all the very best and I dont give advice ………….but if I did I would suggest you read other peoples journals (I know I find them very helpful in my recovery) and see where they were, where they are and where they want to be, take care love Maverick.