I will try to post here on a regular basis for the first month or so and then see whether I should continue. Anyway, I’ve started my own private „gambling-free“ diary and plan to keep it for half a year at least, as I find journaling helpful in other areas of life.

I started betting (sports, mostly european football) soon after I became eligible to do it. I don’t actually recall how it started exactly (who introduced me to it), but I think what really made me stick with it was the fast significant (50x) win I got. I reflect now that from then on I was hooked deep inside in my head. At the present moment, I think that big wins are the worst thing that can happen to a CG as they add a lot of time for the gambler to even start considering to quit. All the money won are lost very soon and then you end up chasing ever increasing sums that „should’ve been yours“. I’ve had two truly miraculous wins – when I won back very large sums of money (that I’ve stolen from my family) with unbelievable odds a day before it would have come out, yet to lose even more in less than 2 months time in both cases. Is there any gambler who quit forever after a win, even a small one?:)

I’ve caused a lot of pain to my family, lost couple great gfs, wasted huge amount of time watching sports and exhausted my nervous system. I am in debt now, as I have been for a couple of years now, but I know I will manage it.

I will be sharing more info about my journey to finally making the only right decision to quit forever and my experience in the first 30 days of not betting ever again.

As I’ve written earlier, today is my day #2. It was a busy day and I only had a couple of stupid gambling thoughts in the morning. Feeling strong and confident in myself.

Thanks for stopping by and I would be happy seeing your encouragement, tips and life stories in the comments. We all can make it one day!

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