boy oh boy.. 2020 started off crazy for me. well for all of us.
a little about me before i get into the nitty gritty.
I’m a 24 year old from Ukraine, with a gambling addiction. I’m not from any rich background, and i freelance as a developer.
I always thought in moments of regret, why I gamble, and why I’m pushing myself into a hole of dept at such an age, and I always seem to have the same answer, loneliness and boredom. not to mention online influencers.
i started off gambling in the start of 2020 on an online casino, gambling around the 2-3$ mark. it was just tasteful fun and experience, that didn’t really have any impact on me financially. One day i hit a jackpot with 2$ and cashed out 1000$. it took mere seconds for the to happen.. i believe that’s were i got hooked. yeah, i still work the same job as i did in 2020 but I make a bit more. but just for context, I don’t gamble with 2-3$ anymore, the minimum bet i toss into online slots or roulettes is around the 100-400$ per bet. so sometimes i end up spending 1-3k$ per day. every month i have a dept to close. but every now and then i hit small jackpots giving me hope that someday I’ll hit a big one which might secure something in my future.
this.. mental strain and depression is really getting to me. I’m writing this after losing 5k$ today taken from my savings account. Trying to make back last month’s lost money. instead burying myself in deeper dept. the scariest thing about all this, is how well aware i am of the grave mistakes I’m doing and how i keep doing them despite this fact.