[dev777]

Hello guys.

 

25  y.o Male here from not a so well developed country but I have a relatively good income with my job paying about 1800$ per month. I have been working for a little more than a year now. I’m not yet married but I have a girlfriend and my colleagues hail me for my good money management character. I consider myself a good saving person and I had about 16k$ in my bank account in the beginning of this month.

 

I discovered an online gambling website earlier this month and since I was on leave I thought let me pass time with this website and started playing roulette. I was so lucky with it and after the first day I won about 10$.

 

I was so happy with myself and wondered why I hadn’t discovered about the online site before. I was so hooked up with it, I made about 1300k in one week just playing roulette.

 

I used to withdraw the money in my bank account and yesterday night I had vowed not to gamble anymore as I was high up in profit and there was still chances for me to lose the money.

 

I said to myself let me made the last deposit, even if I lose, I’m still in a big profit. I deposited 20$ and continued playing roulette, I had a good streak and was high upto 250$.

 

I was of the idea that I withdraw the  240$ and continue playing with the 10$ left then quit.

 

While I was about to withdraw I looked at the roulette table and saw this streak of black results. 7 black straight. I said to myself let me put just 50$ on red, if I lose then I’m still up in the casino cumulatively. I placed the 50$ on red and missed. I was so frustrated and said the next must be red, put all the remaining chips, 190$ on red and missed again.

 

My casino balance was 0 but my cumulative casino wins within that week were still high. About 1100$ now. Instead of quitting, I was in tilt mode, I deposited 300$ to try and recover the lost 240$. My country has a very fast deposit methods into online platforms and by the time I had deposited the 300$ just one game had passed and the result was still black. I said to myself the next one has to be red. I placed all the 300$ on red and missed again. The next one was red. 

 

I was frustrated and put another 700$ and put it on black and missed. I tried to deposit another 700$ from my bank account but couldn’t as I would have reached the maximum daily limit. So I deposited 330$ and put it all on red and won this time. I had 660$ but was only about 400$ in profit at that time so I thought to myself I need to double up this 660$ to get back to how I was in the beginning of the day.

 

Guess what I did. I placed all the 660$ on red and missed. All this appened in just 8 mins.. I lost all the 1300$ profit and an extra 200$ in just 8 mins. I really feel so down and disappointed with myself. 1500$ is almost my entire salary for one month.

I still feel the urge to deposit some cash when midnight comes as the restriction for the previous day will have passed and I’m afraid I’m going to lose even more than  I have already lost. 

I really need help. I’m on the brink of destruction. ?? ??

[MurrS7]

Consider yourself lucky you only lost casino winnings man. What you did there is called chasing a loss, us gamblers know that feeling all too well. Trust me it can get way worse if you don’t stop, my story last month was similar but higher wages, it always becomes higher wages the more time you the longer you gamble. Got my hours cut at work, went to casino with 3000$, lost it in 30 min, call my bank to increase limit to 6000, take another 3000 lose that in 1 hour. Drive to branch withdrawal another 4000, go back to casino, break even, get greedy, lose the whole 10k. Next day wake up take another 3k go back. Lose it, go back same night with another 3k. Lose it, by the way.. I was playing with my line of credit for some
Of that, now I owe the bank 14k. Please don’t take it there man, you sound like you have a good job, gambling is not
A job, it’s not a career, imagine we are just hoping that we make
Money from the spin of a wheel or
The flip of a card.. what kind of purpose in life is that? Get your money the right way bro, work hard, save , grind, find purpose and quit gambling today. Right now. The story I just told you is smalll compared to some also, people lose 100 of thousands of
Dollars, they lose their homes, their businesses, their families all to this sick addiction. It can get worse if you don’t
Stop now, I never thought I would
Be in debt and lose as much as I did, but like you, I chased my losses and never got them back till
I had no access to anymore money. I wish you all
The best , I suggest you put blocks on the account so you’re not tempted to gamble… the addiction is evil, it will ruin your life very fast. Trust me.

[dev777]

Thank you very much for your reply. It really means so much to me. Imagine I just deposited another 50$ and lost it again. This urge won’t go away for some reason. I’m now down 250$, that’s my money. I would have deposited a higher amount had there been no restriction. I’m going to delete my browser history and try to go out for a walk. Really hope this helps. Thanks again for the advice. It really means a lot.

[Dark Energy]

sounds familiar, as MurrS5 said you are chasing your loses , these are signs of addiction please stop at this stage it easier than later on.
it is either to stop now or to stop after a few months after losing all the money that you have and piles up loans.

as a fast action you can do the following:
1: install websites blocker there is link on the website for similar tools, or you can download cold-turkey, it is dificult to remove it after activating the timers ( if you are tech. person you will appreciate such feature because we always find a work around).
2: close all your credit and debit card, in my country the banks has a feature called “cordless cash” where you can withdraw the money from the ATM without the need of the card just you need to inter a code sent to your registered mobile, not having a credit or debit card is important to block the way that you will transfer your money to the gambling web-site.
3:and since your are at this early stage try to involve a family member with this you have not loss any thing yet , so you don’t have the shame and guilt that will prevent from informing a family member it is easier to get them involved now than in later stage.

if you apply the above I realy belive you will come over it and you will not back to gambling specially point 2 & 3.

finally you still at the shores so keep it this way, ignore what you have lost.

don’t keep the full load on your self to fight the gambling urges build a strategies to help you what i have suggested in the above points.

good luck and keep posting

[charles]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

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And on that note….

I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you ??

Take care

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[charles]

Hi Dev, well done on looking for help. You have already gotten some good advice, which things can you apply to your situation?

Well done on deleting your browser history but really the blockers darkenergy suggests would be a good move. You can also ask the sites you normally use to ban you.

Keep posing and let us know the posiive steps you are taking.

[dev777]

First I want to really thank all of you for caring for me and your great advice. It matters greatly. I know what I’m about to say will be a very big disappointment for everyone here and definitely myself. So I went out for a walk, went to the bank and withdrew some money and did some shopping. I bought two pairs of jeans. I felt ashamed at myself for trying to bargain with the shop keeper when I knew I was betting large sums of money for a color on roulette. It was all ok until when I was about to sleep when I relapsed and loaded another 700$ into my online account trying to chase my losses and you guessed right, lost it all in the blink of an eye. This might come as a surprise to you guys but I just felt this burden that was inside my chest just suddenly disappear. It was at that moment that I really accepted my losses and I now know I cannot get my money back. I now accept that there is really no shortcut in life, you reap what you sow. Good thing I have around 14k$ saved in my bank account and I promise you guys I will never put my money on online gambling again. Thank you very much for your help guys, I’ll be posting my progress. Cheers

[peterso]

glad you have realised your problem so early on it took me 35 years thousands of pounds in debt and so unhappy get out now man and enjoy your life forget all about gambling its a mugs game and i know all anout it

[peterso]

glad you have realised your problem so early on it took me 35 years thousands of pounds in debt and so unhappy get out now man and enjoy your life forget all about gambling its a mugs game and i know all anout it

[dev777]

Third day today of being gambling free. I have banned myself from the online website I had been gambling. Life isn’t bad. I hope it will stay like this. Once again thank you guys

[dev777]

Hello guys. Hope you’re all doing well. So I was able to go gambling free for about a week but I unfortunately relapsed last week. I discovered another online casino and was able to win back my losses of $1500 in one week. My account had risen from 13k back to $14.5k But you guessed right I didn’t walk away, kept gambling, lost about $3000 this Sunday, chased the loss and luckily won back my losses and was back to $14.5k. Come Monday, lost $4000. I had decided to quit by Monday, deleted my online gambling accounts and my browser history, but relapsed in less than a day. I won $3000 back and my account was now $13.5k not that bad compared to tje $10.5k I was the previous day. I considered myself extremely lucky as I was able to win back a huge amount tnat most gamblers weren’t able to. I told myself I had to quit but no I didn’t. I kept on gambling, won an extra $500 only to lose it all the $500 back after just one hour. I lost another $900, $1200 and 1500 and lost them chasing the $500 loss. I had reached maximum amount withdrawal from my bank. I waited for midnight, lost another $2000. I feel extremely devastated and disappointed with myself. I have been beating myself up for the last few hours as to why I coud let it get to this worse. I have lost more than a half of my years savings in just one day. My leave is ending next week BTW and my work is a very challenging one where you literally reap what you sow but I recently I seemed to have lost the value of money, putting huge bets more than my salary on a table game. Thankfully I still have around $7800 left to my name and I have no debt but I will need about more than 4 months to recover what I just squandered today. Gambling isn’t life

[i-did-it]

Hi dev
The really good thing is you have recognised you have a problem while you still have money left.
We are all here because we all think we have a special winning streak .
Many of us started with a big win which reeled us in.
All of us think we can win back and none of us can walk away even if we do.
You have lost half your savings in a week.
The rest will go in less time than that.
Download a gambling blocker right now and look forward to having your funds restored in four months .
Order a new bank card and get someone to scratch off the numbers on the back with a coin so you cannot deposit .
Take the steps now or you will end up with no savings and in debt .
We all thought that wouldn’t happen to us.
Once we cross that line to addictive gambling we can never go back to normal gambling .

[kolberg]

hi dev,

it’s devastating to hear that. it could be way worse though, believe me. i would suggest admiting your problem to someone you trust and ask them to keep the money for a while.

in my country you can ask exclusion from all legal online casinos at one website and when you do it you won’t be allowed to bet in any online casino. Try to see if something similar is possible in your country.

if you don’t take tough measures now all money will be gone and you’ll be in debt soon, that’s what happens when we let ourselves sink in this terrible addiction.

i wish you all the best and that you can leave this horrible addiction before it harms you more – it’s not about the money, gambling is useless, an ilusion, and it will take everything good away from you!

[dev777]

Thank you very much guys for your advice. It really means so much to me. I woke up today morning feeling so depressed. An idea to deposit another $1500 came to my mind and I successfully suppressed it. I banned myself from the online casino I had been gambling on and now I some relief. I know it will be hard to accept the losses but I can recoup all that I have lost in about 4 months. So 4 months gambling free is my target for now. I want to be gamble free forever. I have asked my bank to reduce my maximum withdrawal limit. I hope I will succeed. Thank you guys

[portnoy58]

Hi Dev

Early on in my recovery I was told that the sums of money involved were not important and that was because losing a weeks’ welfare for one gambler is just the same as someone else losing a months’ wages in a few hours.

What unites us all is the resulting ‘headf*ck’ of “How did I manage to do that?” It is my experience that it is pretty difficult to explain to ‘normal’ people how we managed to be so ‘stupid’, and in fact continued to be so ‘stupid’ over and over again and again. The bottom line for me was I couldn’t buy a packet of cigarettes or toilet paper because I had played every last penny on. I learned how to navigate being skint, (credit was easier to obtain back in the days when I was active}, and I lived in hope for the monthly pay check – usually gone in 48 hours with loans and bills unpaid. The cruellest aspect of gambling was when I won and like you I sometimes got ahead … but I never got out until I started doing meetings. You can save yourself an enormous amount of pain and hardship by getting to some meetings, sharing your experience with others and developing a sense of hope. Good luck.

[dev777]

Hey guys it’s been long since I last posted here in July last year. So much has happened since then. So I had around 7800$ in my account but couldn’t stop gambling until I lost each and every penny I had in my account. I got my salary for July that end month which I also gambled it all away in one day. I was dead broke, took a bank loan, gambled that away too. Took a salary advance for August and you guessed it right I gambled all of that away as well. I was broke and in debt. I successfully managed to quit gambling and have been gamble free for 7 months now. I have paid my debt and my account balance is now 12k$. I thank God I successfully did away with this monster called gambling and I’m never looking back again.

[i-did-it]

Wow Dev,
So delighted to read your post.
You’re life has certainly changed and your story is an inspiration for others .
Well done and thank you so much for sharing .

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