[ax9722]

Last Bet Placed : 12.02.2025 @ 4.30 am
Days gamble free : 11 days

Nearly on the 2-week mark. Which is a big improvement and something I am very proud of. I had a blast these days with a lot of time on my hands and managed to use it properly. I could even organise a party with my friends for my Birthday with the money I did not spend gambling. It’s easier every day to see the good sides of a gamble-free life !

Let’s keep going <3

[ax9722]

Last Bet Placed : 12.02.2025 @ 4.30 am
Days gamble free : 2 and a half days

Finished working at my dad’s to earn some money. Happy to have spent the 2 and a half days off. Tomorrow morning will be 3 whole days. It goes fast. Sunday will be n.4 and so on. Can’t wait to reach week 1. A lot of stuff is happening right now and it keeps my mind away from it, really happy about how I manage to go through these first days, which are the most difficult to go through.

I’m feeling good even if it’s hard. I’ll keep going, I’ve got people around me and a lot of stuff to do that’s better than that.

Love y’all keep fighting !

[ax9722]

Hi Scj, thanks for your kind message !

It’s officially been more than 24 hours and I can’t express how proud of myself I am. It’s obviously tough but we keep it up. Had a whole day of work and now time to spend some time with my friends around a great meal. Going back to having moments with the lads on a regular basis is something I also plan doing.

Tomorrow will be 48 hours let’s go <3

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New log because the thoughts of making my money back are here more than ever. I’m writing this here so that I don’t let this happen.
I have to stay focused, I have plenty of other things to do and this won’t bring me anything other than bad feelings.
Come on Axel stay focused, in your lane, flourishing as they say. Think about tomorrow where you’ll be able to write that you didn’t play for 24 hours. The satisfaction and proudness this will bring to you. Keep it up.

[ax9722]

Well done la.

Same journey starts here. Same conclusions. Time is something you can’t get back.

Love you

[ax9722]

I am so mad at myself.
I had been clean for the past 6 months. I met a woman who’s caring and loving, I moved into a new flat, I changed jobs and everything was perfect. Until i decided to find some gambling site the other day, out of boredom, i started playing again. Found my bad habits once again, started spending money I could afford, until I reached a point where I spent money I couldn’t afford anymore, which I spent trying to get my money back. The worst thing is, that it worked. I got up to 22’000 $ on a slot. But guess what, I wanted more. I wanted to erase the 100k I spent in this since I am 18. I wanted to reach that level. And guess what ! I lost it all. 22’000 $. Over a year worth of rent. Holidays in f*cking Maldives for 3 weeks. 22’000 $. 4 months worth of salary. I was disgusted. So what happened when I lost all that ? You got it, made some more deposits, which didn’t pay off.

I hate myself for knoqing how bad it is to carry on, but I can help it. I need proefessionnal help, this shit has been eating me up for the past 6 years, and I can’t carry on like that if I wanna have a good life. Something needs to change. Now. I’m gonna seek professionnal help and get back on track. I can’t keep doing the same mistakes over and over again. I need to understand what’s going on, how I can cure that, and how I could potentially get better over a short period of time.

[ax9722]

Haven’t played since this post, I kept myself quite busy, tonight is the first night where i didn’t have anything planned after work, and playing is tickling hard right now. Not gonna touch it tho, keeping myself out of this.

[ax9722]

Some are at 500 days, I’m ath day one. Every journey has a beginning, today is mine, and your post is encouraging. Well done, hope I’ll reach the 500 days mark in a year and a half <3

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