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Thanks geordie,

Done another 30 today, I agree with every thing you said, especially nothing bad will happen if I don’t bet but will if I do. Let me tell you more about me, I have a very addictive personality, whether it’s alcohol , the home, work, the gym etc. When I done my 61 days I got used to not betting, I felt a different person, yes I missed that buzz but I didn’t have these emmense lows and guilt. Like I said I have addictive traits but gambling affects me more and like no other. I done 61 days through sheer will and grit. No one knows about my gambling, my partner knows I bet too much but hasn’t a clue how I feel and how much it controls me, I know I’m in denial of the problem as I’ve always reigned it in and never lost it. I love my sport and I loved gambling on it but it’s gone too far now. I’m not going to bet on ipl cricket tomo, I haven’t got any money of my own, I know I’ll hate it and come 11am I’ll be gagging to have another 20 on it.
I have never considered outside help as i am too private a person to admit to this problem , on here no one knows me and it’s safe.
I sit and think , how the hell can one pastime like betting take control of my head like this ? With cigarettes ( never smoked) and alcohol I understand as it’s a physical craving , but I can’t get my head around craving this buzz ? I know I will never win , I’ve read so many posts and it’s me, yet I still go back for more. This false dream of turning ￡20 into hundreds with a purple patch . Tomorrow is the start, my aim is to beat 61 days, I know this week and whilst IPL is on will be torture but it’s gotta be done , i just want this feeling to go away now and be normal .

Night, Jjm

[Coaster76]

Thanks geordie,

Done another 30 today, I agree with every thing you said, especially nothing bad will happen if I don’t bet but will if I do. Let me tell you more about me, I have a very addictive personality, whether it’s alcohol , the home, work, the gym etc. When I done my 61 days I got used to not betting, I felt a different person, yes I missed that buzz but I didn’t have these emmense lows and guilt. Like I said I have addictive traits but gambling affects me more and like no other. I done 61 days through sheer will and grit. No one knows about my gambling, my partner knows I bet too much but hasn’t a clue how I feel and how much it controls me, I know I’m in denial of the problem as I’ve always reigned it in and never lost it. I love my sport and I loved gambling on it but it’s gone too far now. I’m not going to bet on ipl cricket tomo, I haven’t got any money of my own, I know I’ll hate it and come 11am I’ll be gagging to have another 20 on it.
I have never considered outside help as i am too private a person to admit to this problem , on here no one knows me and it’s safe.
I sit and think , how the hell can one pastime like betting take control of my head like this ? With cigarettes ( never smoked) and alcohol I understand as it’s a physical craving , but I can’t get my head around craving this buzz ? I know I will never win , I’ve read so many posts and it’s me, yet I still go back for more. This false dream of turning ￡20 into hundreds with a purple patch . Tomorrow is the start, my aim is to beat 61 days, I know this week and whilst IPL is on will be torture but it’s gotta be done , i just want this feeling to go away now and be normal .

Night, Jjm

[Coaster76]

Just have to say big well done on 63 days, I’m on day 18 and I’m well pleased with myself. I’ve never been into online gambling myself, I have always resisted as I know what I’m like, saying that I live bout 200 yards from a bookies so it’s not hard to put a bet on .
I can’t remember who posted it but someone on this site said once the bet is put on consider that money gone, if you win you’ll give it all back and most probably with interest.
I can’t do controlled betting, even if I start off small and only in certain days it ends up in bigger loss, days or weeks down then line.
How you filling your time not gambling ? That’s a worry long term for me, at the moment Ive joined gym and getting slightly addicted to that, but I know once that wears off I need to fill my time with something else . Yesterday was hard, first massive urge I’ve had but I resisted, ad you’ve done 63 days are you getting used to not gambling or is that a silly question?
So well done and really , all thes best on keeping it going.

[Coaster76]

Well I knew once festive period was over and ‘normality ‘ resumed this was when the real test would come. Mega tempted today, walked down high street to get some bits from shops and so fancied a bet on the footy this afternoon , miserable weather , nothing on tv , perfect storm for a bet .
Cut to chase and I didn’t gamble, my feelings that it felt different this time obviously not the case. Got busy day planned tomo so I’ll be fine then, I guess it’s these ‘normal ‘ nothing days that are dangerous , still I’ve done 18 days now and feel fine as I type , determination strong and I know how I’d be feeling right now whether I’d won or lost, it’s just not worth it.

[Coaster76]

Hi Monique ,

I realised I saved my message twice in error , so I’ll only post on one thread . All good again this morning , thank you for your reply.

[Coaster76]

Thank you for your reply, still long way to go match your brilliant effort. I’m an obsessive person, thinker so I’m hoping the gym will help when I’m bored and when I’d normally gamble. So far so good but I know this may not last , still, I feel good this morning and not one urge to gamble .

[Coaster76]

For me the money is secondary sometimes , of course I can’t afford the losses but like you , that buzz is something else . I’ve woken up today all happy but looking at odds again, this is what angers me is not only money is the time I spend thinking about it, it engulfs me , I just can’t stop it. I’m betting with winnings today and then tomo stop even if I win .
I’m off work next 2 weeks on holiday , not going away , but I’m off with family and I want to spend time with them, not on mobile checking scores. Part of wants to control it and be in control but I know once I lose I’ll chase and end up down and skint for month .

[Coaster76]

Hi there, love and hate gambling , that so resonates with me . I’ve gambled 2 days on trot now, won both days and I’m buzzing tonight, the highs and lows are immense. I will gamble tomorrow but then aim to abstain again . In honesty I’m taking rubbish but I’m gonna try. It’s the high I feel tonight I miss when I don’t gamble, it’s not like anything else, yet in head I know a loss is just around the corner , then the downer comes. It’s a drug I just wish I had never taken all those years ago .

[Coaster76]

That’s great , I was on day 9 but couldn’t resist, I placed a small ￡20 bet, I won but I don’t feel happy as I now know tomorrow I have to collect and I can’t resist another bet. When you get that urge your memory of losses just disappear. Been in this situation so many times and I know if I go on a run I’ll give it all back with interest. Well done on your 10 days , don’t ease up and continue in your good place your in.

[Coaster76]

Hi Charles

Went into bookies at lunch, didn’t take any money with me so I couldn’t bet , still , just going in and watching my mate bet gave me buzz, so tempted now on way home and have small bet on cricket tonight. Why did I do it? I could do with couple of hundred as I’m off work next 2 weeks , I’ve missed that buzz and think just one bet, win, and only bet with profit , when gone , abstain again . Done 9 days now so I can hold back , but then again if lose there’s cricket tomo and Thursday and I know I’ll wanna get money back if I lost . I sometime believe I can control, then I have a blow out and feel like I did weekend before last . It’s so hard not betting on sport , especially as it’s never off our screens .

[Coaster76]

Hi there

I’m into day 8 gamble free, weekend was fine, in fact it was brilliant . This afternoon hard as I love cricket betting and I was constantly thinking should / shouldn’t I , well I didn’t and team I would have back cruising . For me like many others once I break my duck I’m I’m off again, it takes over my whole mind. It’s not the amounts as I can to a degree control that but it’s the shear obsession I have . It guts me I can’t “enjoy ” a bet on my favourite of all sports but I have to keep going, protecting my score of non gamble days. Although you’re up on recent blip start again, day 1. Winning is when it’s hardest to stop as that buzz is some drug but we must stop , gather mind and do everything possible so you can’t bet.

[Coaster76]

Day 5 done and all good, no strong urge today at all , got nice weekend with family planned and fully intend to enjoy the sunshine . It’s t20 quarters next week, that’s going to be hard but I’m so determined. I know my moods and feelings go up and down, but feeling good tonight . My initial target is 1st September , that will be a whole month. Time is a healer and loss of weekend seems less painful now, but I know like before I musnt fool myself in to thinking just one ￡20 bet won’t hurt as it does. Wanna treat my boys tomorrow and not spend day checking phone and mood dependant on how bet is going !

[Coaster76]

I’ve walked miles this week in my lunch hour, I’m gonna tell him I wanna keep it up and more than welcome to join me. He’s a good mate , he would understand but I don’t feel I could tell him. My wife is wonderful , she wouldn’t be upset or angry , I’ve suffered with depression in the past and she was brilliant . A common thing I’ve read is that CGs are so frugal in other areas of their lives yet don’t blink wasting money betting . That’s me !!! I’m always looking to save, penny pinch yet I waste 20 after 20 down bookies, then moan to wife if she spends too much at supermarket. I’m gonna check out GA site tonight . Thing is Charles, when I read people’s posts I haven’t lost no where near what they have and I couldn’t , but the way I bet and I get totally obsessed by it I know I have a problem . I have an obsessive personality so I shouldn’t be surprised. Thank you for your post.

[Coaster76]

Well it’s 4 days since last bet , and tonight had strongest urge yet, again its sports betting and I’m thinking one another ￡100 bet to get back some I lost last weekend. I know it’s bad to think this way and been here before , I’ve been checking odds today for first time , I hate this ! Why can’t I just enjoy a bet ?? If I lose I’ll be back to feeling like I did in Monday morning , plus I’ll be spending money set aside for holiday in 2 weeks time. I really don’t think long term I can resist , I can’t believe I’ll ever watch sport and never bet again!!! I just can’t afford to keep losing though

[Coaster76]

That’s what I worry about , it’s 3 days since last bet and I’m still so angry with myself , once that feeling goes I think just a small bet is fine and its leads to more. Today been a real test with cricket on but been ok. I totally get the emptiness, hate thought of not betting but the feeling after a loss is much worse, got to hold on to this feeling to make me not place that first beg again.

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