[falling38]

Sounds like you had a nice visit and party.
It’s normal to not be able to be happy for others because our lives are in such turmoil.
I had 2 slips since I started on this page and I’m so embarrassed. I did leave with what I had brought with me but I felt sick after. I banned myself out of the casinos and knew damn well I wasn’t supposed to be there but tested my luck. Didn’t get caught the first day but the second day they caught me. They told me this would be my only warning as I know it’s trespassing and next time they would call the cops to remove me. How embarrassing. I don’t even know how to stay away. How to stop having all these weird feelings. I’m slowly starting to loss it.

[falling38]

Hi. I am new and also feeling the same way. I do the same except I go to pubs and play the machines. I didn’t go for almost 2 years but this last 3 months I do about 2x a week. I will go till my daily limit is maxed then head to the bank.
I then lose and try to justify that it’s ok I blew that money because pay day is coming or I will say well I don’t smoke, drink or do drugs so this is my vice. I’m always trying to make it sound better. I banned myself out of the casinos and can’t play online. But small pubs don’t check ID or scan so I feel it’s alright even though it’s not.
How is it normal I can’t justify an oil change but can throw 2000 in the machines in one day and feel fine?
I’m now slowly going into my savings. I need to stop I need a friend something…. thank you for listening.

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