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Thank you Jen. I’m ok. Am starting a new day 3 today. I had a slip Saturday but am not giving up!
Hi Steev. My first slip was on Sunday. I had worked an extra shift and was tired and lonely. My sister had contacted me that day while I was at work in regard to my parents and how they weren’t getting along. I don’t think I was thinking of that though. I was tired and didn’t really want to go straight home. I felt like ‘relaxing’ and I would be able to control myself…you know, just stay a short time & leave…and there was a thought in the back of my head that I might win some extra money to make up for some of my previous losses. I had actually walked out of a casino with $500 winnings on my last venture of 2018. Sunday night was the usual night of remorse and Monday was the ‘day after’ a not so funday Sunday. I was tired and depressed for slipping on Sunday. On days like that it’s best for me not to leave my house unless I’m going to work. I went to a gas station to get some beer…that was my excuse…& of course they had a casino. The rest is history. I work tonite and am leaving my cards at home in in the case I get some crazy thoughts when I get off tomorrow morning. Going to start leaving my house with only enough cash to stop and pick up things I may be needing.
Thank you Jen. Starting today as day 1…again. I’ve been battling this nightmare for almost 14yrs. I could have retired well on the money I’ve lost to gambling but instead I’ll be lucky to ever retire at all and if I do it will be a meager existence and I have only myself to blame. I’m going to put some barriers in place so I won’t have access to money for gambling. I too am sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Yay Jen! Crazy isn’t it? I’m need to go into town to mail a package to my son and I’m afraid to go because I’m fairly certain the ‘crazy brain’ will come alive. It’s so insane that it took me over 2 hrs to try to get all the stuff I wanted to send into 1 box because I didn’t want to spend another $10 on a 2nd smaller box. When I’m gambling $10 is like nothing. I needed to see your post. Thank you…it’s going to be a New Year soon and hopefully, we’ll start it with not only good intentions but with actions that are good as well!
I’m so sorry about your slip Jen. Today will be day 1 for me as well. Everything that you wrote I could have written myself. I was just going to stop for a few minutes. Of course that didn’t happen. 10hours later, minus $1200 and looking like a crazed ugly tired old woman I came home. Of course I didn’t sleep good and so I’ll spend today with yet another ‘gambling hangover’. I think I was trying to get it out of my system before the New Year because of course that’s my promise to myself..to be gamble free in 2019. I’ll be praying for you also. Make the best of today and get some rest.