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Maybe it’s not good idea to go back to the past these casinos no matter what game you play is fixed other wise how would they make their money .
We are playing a game with our own money it’s hard to except this that we paid someone just to play a game .
I read allot of reviews lately about casinos and trust me none of them are running legally they all fixing games .
Because some are abroad they are hard to be regulated and the fast that uk government has no care what so ever .

You need to take everything baby steps in order to recover .

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Hopefully soon you will feel lot better , I can imagine what you are going through I been paying of my debt every moth and keep telling my self had I not gambled I would of been spending this money instead off paying debts created by gambling .
If you need someone to work for your new company if you wish to restart it again let me know ?? .
Look forward to see you more recovered after your ga good luck x

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You have great attitude and sound very strong however be cearfull . All the people who are addicted to gambling tend to be strong characters who have had great control in their lives before and done very well in life these are the people they target . From what I read since been here I realised this that gambling companies are targeting the wealthy the working class to make us their slave as we are the once who want to win big and make allot of money so we do to have to work and so on .
It’s great you have a very positive attitude keep it up and you will succeed one you have all the temptation removed you will just fight the urges and nightmares and they do get better. Good luck x

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In better mood today it’s going to be house choirs for me today got allot to do but due to my condition I have to rely on someone else to do it . I got so many doctor appointments next week and week after I am sick of seeing doctors , consultants does my head in .
Anyway today is going to be productive day
Hope everyone else has great day today

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Firstly welcome to this site and congratulation to you . We are all on the same boat . I can’t tell me family at all as my mother will not for give me I once told her few years ago she nearly disowned me . My last boyfriend dumped me because I had this problem hi just didn’t want to help me instead said I don’t want a life with a gambler .
I recently told my current boyfriend over a date night out and he was drunk that’s the only time I had the courage to tell him and he was amazing about it . He now has control over my money and where it goes .
You are in a better position as you are single and have no one dependant on you hence why it will take you quicker to come out of your debt satiation .
So don’t beat yourself up what’s done is done future is waiting for you .
Sit down and think what makes you want to gamble is it because you are bored got no friends or you want more money to but nice stuff what is it that makes you want to gamble asses that and than explain to your mind that gambling is not going to fulfil this .
If you haven’t got allot of friends than find ways to meet new people ga meting will be great way to meet people .
You can write how you feel here as we are all here to help each other .
You can win this addiction but only you can decide and you can set up your road to recovery no one can force you .
I started a diary and this is the best thing I done as I love recording my progress and makes me want to keep it up for the whole year and than another and another .
Remove the access to gambling cut up your cards .
If you want to do this all on your own than cut the cards , take your self off from online gambling and open a cash card account and have your direct debits coming out of there this is the only way you can stop temptation as it’s going to bug you . You may get urges , nightmares and all sorts be ready for this .
Good luck
Don’t forget you won big because you did stop

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Tonight I feel different , tonight I feel numb to my feelings and wants not sure why but tonight I have no urge and all I can think of is what is tmr going to bring .
I sometimes don’t want to think and let things happen in front of me and let the universe guide me .
I successfully reduce my credit limit on that card I had so I got no money to use that made me feel so much better as I paid most of it off this month and very proud of my self .
I haven’t spent allot of money this month either this goes to show that I am very sensible with money and don’t need allot and can live in my means . It is sad to think had I not gambled and racked my credit cards I would of used that money to go shopping and treat my little boy endlessly with gifts .
Today I noticed he likes cars and trucks so I want to buy him a truck next week . I hate day time tv as they got gambling adverts and my little boy loves it he sits there and watches it so cearfully , I keep changing the channels but they are everywhere , makes me sick.

Tmr is day 18 and I am so proud of my progress .
My online counselling starts in June cannot wait.

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Thank you Harry that’s exactly what I was thinking to do , I think having no access to money is def stopping me to gamble and ables me to concentrate on paying my debts .
I will give them a call now . I am paying cards off and cancelling them recently as I believe credit cards should not allow people to gamble they are aiding it so I want none of them in my life .

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Thank you for your post .

I have removed the access to money however there is one creditcard I have that I remember the details to so I need to get Thant changed asap and yesterday I paid most of it off so I was getting naggings from the devil inside me to use that card to gamble but thankfully I recaived a message from liberty and this made me to think again. So today I reduced the credit limit of that card so I can’t use it . I have allot of time in my hands during the night and I might need to start taking my sleeping tablets to remove this .
I tried limiting the internet however I got online business to run so I need the internet to track this and k9 seems to be pain in the arse to navigate .
I think once that credit card is sorted I will have better control . It’s hard ride thought

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Last night was very hard but I managed to not gamble so I am saved from my self till tonight .
As the days go pass I get more agitated not sure why I am hoping this will go away soon rather than later as I got no intention to want to gamble . I am doing really well I just want to keep it up .
It’s hard but I am going to over come this
I won because I did stop xx

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It’s terrible like a mental turture , always happen in the evenings I better change that card number that I remember I seriously don’t trust myself anymore I think I am getting desperate . But I need to do this and I need to get over it .
I really want to gamble right now i don’t know why but I just do . I hate feeling like this and I hate it cus it’s like cheating my self . Grrr I need to go and sleep

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Great to see your post and great to see that you are doing well.
You seem to have found a new way of life for your self specially making the video I think that’s a amazing idea and will help many out there to understand this nasty habit .
Don’t worry about your wife she will eventually realise that you are doing your best for both of them .
I think ga is going to help you massively and I hope you will comeback being a gamble free man . It’s great that we have this opportunity a place that can help.
I am starting my counselling in three weeks time so I am well excited . Keep it up x

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Thank you for your kind words liberty .

I wanted to gamble just now in fact I even registered to a casino and was planning to use a card that I remembered but something happened I received your message from email on my phone and I thought twice.
I am glad I didn’t do it and feel bad that I actually tried .

Hopefully I will overcome this tmr .
I am thinking it’s because I been seen loads of tv adverts regarding gambling .

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Your action clearly shows you have no indication to gamble again so pat your self on the back for that .
Changing prices now that sounds boring but it seems like you managed to overcome this boring task . Good luck for tmr x

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Hi

Sorry haven’t been here yesterday was so busy trying to recover from the operation.

I am in lot better mood today , body hurts but mind is more stable today . I seem to have become immune to gambling haven’t thought about it in two day to be honest. But that’s probably because I have no means to gamble .

I been meditating regularly and I bealive this has helped allot lately.
My dresses arrived one was great but they other was too short so had to send one back. I still have lots of money from my pocket money left which goes to show how much money I was waisting by gambling before.

I am very proud of myself for doing this and in so much better spirit .

I am a winner because I did stop x

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Hi

Sorry couldn’t post earlier as had my surgery and in agony right now however this made me open my eyes even more to the fact that health is very important .
Still going strong haven’t given a penny to the casino monster and it makes me lough everytime I see adverts pop up now . When I see the adverts I can see how desperate they are to get our money off us .
Thank you for the lovely comments , I been too busy so couldn’t comment on other people’s diaries lately but I assure you I get notification and I read them .

I am very much looking forward to my new dresses and I managed to loose some weight too so almost ready for the summer with gamble free life and slim body and lot a of money to enjoy .

I am trying to be more positive lately and want to be able to keep my spirit high as this is important in recovery I think as the more I think about past losses I get depressed and more inclined to gamble .

Whilst I was at the hospital I was reading about kids getting abducted in Australia by peodofiles and this made me to worry for my son so much , a kid was kidnapped playing on his door step when I read these kind of stories I worry allot and makes me bealive my gamble problem is far too small compared to what other people are suffering .
I am now going to dedicate to save money pay my debts off and become full time mum for my son so that I can be with him 24/7 . Seriously this world is getting worst each day any way this is how I felt today . I don’t normally watch tv or news so when I do it bloody effects me so much specially if it’s about kids .
Hopefully I should be in better mood tmr and less worried .

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