[jenpen]

Thanks for your support.
I have not gambled since I last wrote the 17th, by telling myself I will not gamble today. I read that advise on this forum and I found it very helpful. If I promise myself, I will never gamble, the prospects of keeping the promise seems so daunting that I don’t even try. But I can keep the promise of staying away from gambling today and tomorrow.

Can’t tell my mum, it’s a long story, but I think it would be counterproductive telling her.
I only gamble online, so luckily it is relatively easy to stop it – thanks to blocking software.

I think next step for me is to find a hobby, something relaxing, that I can do even when I have migraines.

[jenpen]

It’s wired how it sometimes feels like I’am alone even though I know I’am not. It’s like waking up scared from a nightmare and not being able to shake off the bad feeling, despite knowing it was just a dream. Sometimes it just feels like I’am the only human who ever screwed up, and if I told people, nobody would understand how I could be so stupid and society would turn into a monster and swallow me.
Thanks for your post Paul. It’s a bit easier now to shake of the scary feelings ??

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