[John12]

Hey Laura, thank you for your reply. 

I’m not struggling with paying my rent as my studentloan comes in on the 24th and literally instantly transfer it to my shared bank acc instantly, although my parents would always help me out incase i needed it.

Just last week i asked my dad 5 times in 3 days for 30 euros which were all intended for gambling purposes, it’s gotten to a point where i’m just emberassed about my addiction towards my parents, who are the only people in my life that know about it too.

I’ll be honest with you, i never considered counseling sessions nor do i know if they are at my campus, i’m sure they are but i’m not sure if its necesary, i find myself a strong minded person and do truly believe that i can get through this myself (even though ive said this for the past year, yet got dragged back into it everytime). I have for the first time ever closed all of the betting accounts that i have along with asking them to stop E-mailing me with their promotion spams.

I do see writing all of this up and giving it a place and audience a step into the right direction, i do understand that what i did wasn’t healthy and has to be put to a stop, boredom was my main motive for gambling in the first place, i hope that with common sense and alot of distractions i can overcome this demon.

Thanks once again for your reply.

[John12]

Hey Craig, i’m glad you replied and mentioned that you can relate to everything i said, even though sports betting is so similar to all the other gambling things out there for me its just a different experience.

When playing poker or blackjack i knew the house always had an advantage which kinda put me off on it, however i somehow convinced myself that with sports betting i am the guy in control. apart from having multiple accumolators on which had a duration of a couple days i always used to bet on in-play games, were the odds 1.70 at halftime? id make a treble including games in which the odds were in my favour.

My entire day used to revolve around sports betting, i’d check livescore atleast 20 times an hour, i could not let my phone rest on the table for 2 minutes without checking betway for in-play matches. My main motive was literally just boredom, which is why i’m currently looking for an active job again that i can combine with uni.

I would spent a couple hundred euro on winning big and when i did i couldn’t resist but bet bigger trying to chase my losses, in my mind it was OK as i was only gambling my winnings, yet i had wasted a couple hundred on it in the first place, the cycle went on and on and never could beat that feeling of winning those 800 euro bets, truly i felt great…for an hour, until my addiction told me to continue and win more and more.

Goodluck on your journey pal, i’m sure you’ll get through this.

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