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Well I cant tell you that I have any right to suggest how to beat the problem as I have been struggling for around 30 years. I also just want to feel happy!! The thing is of course, once addicted even when winning I was never truly happy as I knew/know that even if I win I will then lose and it all just leads to nervous tension and much worse. If you are getting decent bonuses that is in my idea a positive as you can focus on work to mke money. I suggest making plans for that bonus now in a positive way—give it to you mum/dad to hold for some other reason if they dont know about the gamblng…i am sure u will get re advice frm those more regular than me.
Thanks for the comments..yes I am not sure about the higher power thing. I do know that the longer I am away from gambling (and drinking for that matter) the less I feel the urge. Now I have no money. There would be a couple of options to get some, but not much and it would cut down future options for help to relocate. My job is going badly, not really down to me, but in some small ways it is. So i am trying to focus on that. I am lucky in that I work in very quick paced sales job and so can make money that way. If not I would find it much harder to quit and write off losses and its hard enough. I also know part of the problem is an unhapiness with aspects of life. That is difficult. They are linked in some ways. When I have lost everything as now, I cant afford to socialise and dont want to – because as many will know the gambling and the problems its caused you is always there. Charles the good bad/news is that I have to work weekend so I will be busy this weekend. That has never stopped me before, but with lack of cash and a desire to make progress, I am looking forward to posting 4 days tomorrow. Its try for pma every day at the moment as many times I just wish there was an off life switch. Bu t I am a fighter.
Well I am on day 2 now so I have a long way to go to make a year. I also started on fruit machine before progressing to pretty much every form of gambling and losing 100’s of k. I am 43 so you are definitely on the right path to not have to look at so many wasted years – which I am beating myself up about. It has destroyed my self esteem.
Keep on posting because I think knowing people see you adding up the days helps! Just hope I can make some progress
Hi Vera, I cannot take time off work even if the GP would refer me and considering I am still waiting for counselling after 8 months I can’t see it as likely.
For now I am starting again today …. I don’t have money to gamble but I will shut and exclude all sites today. I could hardly come to work today as I just wanted to hide away – partly I am also down because of drinking – which I know further depresses you.
Unfortunately, my Mum passed away a year ago end of Jan and my Dad had to go into care, so I also feel I have lost a lot of support as a result.
I am not religious and I am afraid any God related suggestions are not going to help me. That is just my personal view and I can’t believe in something that I don’t believe in – however well intentioned it may be.
not surprisingly I have screwed up yet again. wiped out for the month and beyond – I don’t have the energy to even do my shitty job.
well I did not get very far. Weekends are bad from me though I work them as there is a lot of sport on and maybe the only area of gambling i enjoy in any way is having a bet on sports. So i did. and won by one point. Of course I know this will lead to more – it has online already. I have a long way to go.
Well, of course I have done a day without gambling before, but maybe not after gambling quite intensively recently. So it is a step in the right direction. My rent is paid my sister is paid, I am a little more in debt. Let’s see how tomorrow is.
I do accept that borrowing is not a solution, but in this case it stops me from being thrown out and being tempted to gamble to pay this rent etc.
Thanks for your post Lee.
I have a long way to go. As I knew and discovered last night, there are unlimited online accounts as I opened 2 new ones! I am obviously very weak right now. Now I have withdrawn funds from them and going to self exclude from those also.
Does anyone know if the blocking software you can buy can be licensed for 3 devices, (At a reasonable cost?) as I have laptop, tablet and phone?I am also finding in the last year that I am very depressed. Has anyone felt that years of massive stressing on your emotions has lead to a general malaise, even without a recent devastating loss (though I have had plenty of those)???
I borrowed to pay my rent after losing. I did not expect to be able to get the 1000 to pay rent and my sister, and the the fact that I did manage to make those two essential payments, makes me less likely to gamble going forward. Hence self excluding myself today.
Well I self excluded from 4 accounts today. 2 more to go once funds are cleared. My bank gave me an increased overdaft online again which i didnt expect as I lost 100 last week ?? . The good news is it allowed me to pay my sister and my rent and so i made the decision to self exclude. May well be in a group later.
i couldnt pay rent or live for next month or pay sister….(last week bank gave me another 1k which i lost in 2 hrs. )
Today i posted the above and then asked online for another o/d and could not believe when they approved it – so now into 4K ( a small amount compared to overall). Now I got that o/d and predictably gambled – won a bit.
Now I am ready to quit. I have seen how pointless it is.Next post when i wake up.
I am waiting for a gambling service to see me after 9 months still waiting,,,, i cant see a depression clinic because i drink more than 2 units a day. I went to an alcohol clinc- they referred me to a paying service…and on and on….
The services havent worked for me. I need to do more. But I am so tired of this shit.Well, after winning my one bet to get thru the month I lost 75% of the whole months salary as I was drunk. As a result, I could not repay my sister and have not paid my rent. The last 3-4 days have been trying to get enough to pay my sister. I got enough but not for rent. Withdrew. But of course – reverse withdrawals mean i lost. Fnally today i managed to lose it all so I cant pay my rent and cant pay my sister.
So there it is. My latest. Of course i am drinking to make sure i feel even more sorry for myself tomorrow.
Gambling is sick and insidious. I understand BJ odds but it is impossible to win so wy do i try?
Tried the chat, but no one there.