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Bee – thanks for the comment. Unfortunately those kind of things are all too familiar for me aswell. Regarding the bookies, you’re right, there are so many and I work up and down the country so it makes it more difficult. I do think it would be a help, I’m going to self exclude from the bookies in the local area.

Hi Vera – I know, I tell myself that I’m ‘limiting access’, but I’m obviously not doing a good job. Whilst it isn’t that relevant now as I lost all I had, this is something I will do next month.

The GA was good. Sometimes you get so caught up in your own problems it makes you feel isolated, GA was friendly and made me realise that isn’t the case. I can’t make the same meeting this week because of work, but there are others in the area I can get to.

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Thanks for the comments Mav.

Im ashamed to say I had a pretty big slip today. Things had been going pretty well, nearly a month gamble-free for the first time in years.

I was just walking past the bookies and have no idea why I went in…. I was on my way somewhere. It went downhill quite quickly. Losing ￡600 in no time wasn’t enough. I went straight home, opened a new online account….. Lost another ￡1000 chasing. Still that wasn’t enough, I opened an overdraft on an account I had only just cleared with a loan I took out and lost another ￡1400.

I seem to lose all reason and it scares meHow can I every have a ‘normal’ life. I’m working two jobs to pay credit cards and interest….. why does it not hit me that it will take me 300hours to repay what I throw away in less than 1 hour.

I’m going to try a GA meeting tomorrow. See how that works for me.

I’m going to try a GA meeting tomorrow

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Keep it up Mav…. You’re doing great.

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Thanks Maverick. I had a great time away thanks.
I’ve been trying to restructure my finances since I got back and staying focused with work.
I haven’t gambled, but that could be due to not having the money. I’ve been feeling quite low at times, the money I owe seems overwhelming. Not as low as when I lose even more though so I just need to try and stay strong.
Payday tomorrow, I need to pay everything out and limit access to what I have left.
Day 14 – the furthest I have made it this year.

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Good work Mav, keep it going. I’m in a similar situation tomorrow, payday and a seeming endless amount owing out.

Hoping it works out.

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Good Luck Maverick. I really hope it works out this time. Don’t give up, and you will succeed.

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Thanks for the comments Maverick, I appreciate the support.
I slipped today, quite badly. Stupid amounts on a new online account. I’m feeling quite low right now, but I’m away for a few days over the weekend with no gambling access. I think it’s what I need.

Day 1 again

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I’ve managed to keep away, no gambling. The urges have been quite strong, but after a really big, loss I always find it ‘easier’ to stay away. It’s too fresh and raw, and I usually don’t have any money available.

I just hope I can keep it up.

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