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I agree completely as i had previously one night it a very large jackpot ..five figures and continued winning for about 4 weeks. I had won over $68000.00 at which point i was ahead for the year. It was only April by June i was broke and started the chase. I banned myself September 25 2017 and havent gambled since then. My regular attendance at GA meetings help me alot. My admitted CG addiction to myself helps me understand the urges i still get and have at this very moment. My believe in a higher power along with prayer and remembering my despair the last day i gambled. I am a CG and will always be a CG keep it one day at a time ..remember your worth it so work at it. Stay strong but i am living proof of your statement. That money is gone but i am rebuilding and living again. I look at life differently and use money and save money different. I see the difference yet the urges that a CG has still raises its ugly head .i now recognize the symptoms and havent given in to them at this point. My greatest fear is i will fail.. I pray that fear never materialize. .one day at a time.
Your not alone. all of us share the pain and anguish that gambling addiction causes to ourselves and others. I dont post often but read others postings as they usually will have some relevance to my situation. The best advice at the moment is self exclude. I did that right from the start on September 25 2017 and haven’t gambled on anything since that day. If i would not have done that i would have gambled. Second i found a gambling anonymous group and attend weekly. Third i went to counseling for one on one weekly. I still attend that meeting. I also fill in time either by working. Going to gym the movies spending time with family. You must fill the time or you may make time to gamble. I told my family..what a hard thing to do but what a relief. They may not understand the addiction but they have compassion and are proud of me for admitting my problem and seeking help and putting barriers in place. Limit your access to money!!!if you have it the casino may get it. They have in the past. Take one day at atime. Believe in yourself and know there is alot more to life then spending your time and money on gambling. Breath.your gamblung free life is going to be GREAT! Good luck
Wow i would not have thought when i first began this journal that i could say that right now..gamble free. It certainly is a struggle but i have preserved so far..i have to say this site saved my life. I didn’t think i could have over come the emotions that i felt that 1st day i am thankful they have subsided. Now its xmas and you are aware its a trigger but im holding steady. I must say i am looking forward to it and for it to be over. I wish you all the best and a happy gambling free day
Still here holding on and regaining my life back. What shall i do. Whatever i want as long as there is no gambling. Still leaves the question what shall i do? I guess take a day at a time and breathe the fresh air not the smoke of a casino. I do smoke though.. Need to quit that some day again. Take care to all of you on your journey of life. We only get one life so Lets live it and enjoy
Still here holding on and regaining my life back. What shall i do. Whatever i want as long as there is no gambling. Still leaves the question what shall i do? I guess take a day at a time and breathe the fresh air not the smoke of a casino. I do smoke though.. Need to quit that some day again. Take care to all of you on your journey of life. We only get one life so Lets live it and enjoy
Laura always words of encouragement from you. Thank you they mean alot. I did get three days off for Thanksgiving. I enjoyed the time off but of course could have used the money as i am still pulling out of debt but i can say i am still gamble free as of this moment. Time fly’s. Im still on my journey of life and looking forward to it. I am very aware that i can not gamble so i dont drive near one .lol had to laugh at myself for the avoidance yet very aware of the draw of a casino. I wish you the best of the Holidays and thanks again for the encouraging kind words.
Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts as you and everyone is always present in thoughts with me as well. Hope you are doing well and enjoy the Holidays
Shaun you are doing so well. Im happy for you and your family. Its those who we love so much who we strive to be the best for. Your posts tells a story of my life in many ways..i have thought on more than one occasion WOW finally found others who understand the emotional and financial dread that i feel..yet also understand the urge to escape to the one thing.. the false dream that we think that gambling will bring ..the financial means to change our and our families world..but that ends up being our nightmare because we CG if we have “hit” we think its our big day and keep playing. Those normal people who would only take so much money for gambling would stop. Not me it had to be my lucky day when i get hit. Only to turn from wining to chasing to broke..stressed depressed felt like everyone would be better without me..yet when those intense emotions would pass and thank God they did for me i just felt like a loser and let down on those who depended on me so much..i haven’t gambled since 9/25/17 and the mountains and valleys are still there but atleast i know i cant do it on my own , im not alone, and i did not gamble today..this site. ,GA meeting and individual therapy are my tool box and as long as i am actively participating in my addiction my tool box is my resource i go to for support understanding and strength to say ..i will not gamble today.. So much for my rambling. I am proud of you for today you did not gamble. Have a good night and enjoy your family.
Sorry i havent posted. For awhile but i want you all to know that i read yoyr posts daily. I am still working alot and its helping me get out of debt although slower than i thought but very thankful that i am able to pay back those debts. I must say i have not gambled even though i have thought about it. I was looking for the quick way out but i read i did it ..vera. .gordie..and kin post..those posts helped me thru that moment of weakness. Thank you all for continued support and posts..we all have one have one life to live and i want to live mine gambling free.
Still doing alot of work although it may slow down but i would like it to continue as it does keep me from going to gamble and helps paying down my debts and with xmas right around the corner it can help make it affordable. I hope everyone is staying strong. God bless all of you. We can be happy gambling free.
Thanks for the words of encouragement. Your post is very true. My wife does know i have joined this site and go to GA meeting and see a counseling and she is supportive although see doesnt understand the illness see has lived with the effects that it causes. I have suggested she look on this site or attend a Gamblers Anonymous meeting for family and friends. I use to get upset at her when i would ask for help with a barrier to money and she would reply ” I’m your wife not your mother” she thought i should just stop and eventually I did. I would tell her i wasn’t trying to take from the family but i tried to say when i get the itch its like having poison ivy without any treatment. This site has been very helpful in my recovery. I have searched for a place for awhile it was. This site that found my local GA meeting site. Thank you again and have a great gambling free day.. So much in life to live for.
Thanks for asking i am doing well. Congrats to you . i am sure we could share similar stories. When i get more time i will post more..thank you for your support as you have mine as well.
Thank you for your posts. Although i dont post often i try and read posts everyday as they help me know that im not alone and i am here with others who understand the illness. That is hard to admit…i have an addiction/illnesses. .i not ashamed to admit it. I just never thought “”I” would be one with the issue. My debt i am working off. I started on 9/25/17 with 4 payday loans and a $1500.00 loan from a friend and i borrowed $3000.00 on a vehicle that i paid off . in September i lost about $25000.00 before that loss i was out of debt completely. So the payday loans were a cost of about $1000.00 apieace. To date i have paid off 2 payday loans owe $700.00 on one and $300.00 on the other .paid $1000.00 to friend and $400.00 on vehicle. The car i have a 18 month loan on. The others i hope to get paid off before December. Time will tell if that will happen by then but i hope so as i would like to have money for xmas. I must tell you your post does help and yet i dont feel like i have offerred words of inspiration i have a sincere hope for ever person going thru this illness and i know i still have urges some moments i just i want to give in to them i know it will cause more damage then good so i turn here or my GA meeting every Thursday or individual therapy every Monday. Then wearing myself out working but no pain no gain. I have really felt the loss like no other time as i am paying back on my own without help but i see light now instead complete darkness. I am blessed as you are as well we know what we are facing now we just have to decide we can hide and fight with all ourself because we are worth fighting for and so are our family and friends. We all know we cant pick our family but friends should support even though they might not understand this illness as many of us find it embarrassing to share our defeat i am not ashamed to tell my friends but you must know i know alot of people but only have 5 friends who all encourage me. I accept my past i working on my future. Sorry for my ranting and good luck to you and thank you for taking time to comment.