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Well my 1st day of self exclusion and wow the anxiety level is high!! I took a lorozpam. Prescribed of course as i have dealt with that at times as well. I will be glad when it subsidies. I am determined to not let this addiction determine my life while i understand that i have to be aware i will live the rest of my life,hopefully,as a recovering CG. Thanks to all of you. You were the 1st step to my journey of understanding and support. I will support you as well on your journey living with this addiction. Best of luck to all of us!!!
Yes i do wanna quit ..i only play slots and i self exclusion for a year. I only play slots and with the self exclusion i would have to drive almost 2 hrs to get to the next closest casino. Its a start and i look forward to a path of recovery. .my next GA meeting is on Thursday.
Well i did it i banned myself today only after gambling away $100.00 but i still did it. Its a one year ban. I asked how much i have spent since January 2017 and i was told $303,500.00. Wow so much i could have done. I am anxious right now but while leaving had a calm come over me like “hey!! Todays the 1st day of a new life. I feel liberated!!
Thanks to all who responded to my first post ever on the internet..i appreciate your feedback..it means alot as you all know when you cry out for help and feel like no one is there to support you..so since my post..on Saturday one day after my post i attended my first GA meeting..i felt like a loser and the only person with a problem as i was the only person there besides the meeting coordinator. The coordinator talked mainly about themself. Yet that was ok as i dont know what to expect..i will go to another one Thursday. .it is a first step..today i go to a counseling on addictions. ..i planned on banning myself from the casinos thats my gambling place yet havent done it..i feel like i want all the free gifts..tickets to zz top. Jay leno..warrant and wringer..brew fest..hotel stays that if you had to buy them would be $1000.00 per weekend..Tiffany bracelets. Bonney and dourke purses for my gf..the list goes on including eating crab legs shrimp turkey etc free for two more years..i am holding out for the gifts..someone put some common sense into me..they give me about $200.00 per week free spend money as well. But that is my next step..just got make myself believe i wont go unless i get the free gifts..someone help me make sense of my irrational thought process..i will say what a great site my own experiences are shared by many on here but havent see a post about giving up $1000s of dollars in free gifts. I look foward to your responses.