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the weekend is nearly over and I have food in my belly thanks to a friend! and a roll up to calm me…
I am learning! – I am going to fight my demon but I am really struggling with this time wait and what it is doing to me…I have read a few messages and the main one I thinking about is at the moment I do not love myself but I want too.
I want to change my mindset and I want to love myself again …
I wrote to my daughter again this weekend – I have made a plan to write to her every week – I made a valentine poem for her – to remind me of what life is worth living for – I walked for an hour this evening- not a very happy time – emotional as they say but the clock still runs and I must learn to love myself again….read your message and well done for pouring out your problem… we all have a certain thing we like – I started the gambling life through my dad – he took me to the dogs, let me watch him play cards and allow me to have an interest in the horses when he placed a bet – we would watch it together on a sunday … I hear what you are saying
however, unless you stop it will only get worse – I have lost everything – a house, family and friends and a wife – it WILL ONLY GET WORSE…
someone told me something a long time ago before I lost everything and I wish I took his advice and I think if you want to go back to those small bets you need to know you… he said” if you think you don’t have a problem or think you do but can control it, I challenge you to do this – just STOP for 1 month – no gamble on anything – if you can do that , then look back , notice what you did was different and remember why you stopped!!!you CAN do it…
hi dave,
that’s exactly how I feel and what I am experiencing in life – I have lost the lot – I currently rent a room in a house, no lounge, no family, they don’t want to know, no mates to support me, pissed them off and I turned more and more to gambling – you are not alone my friend and you can do it – I had a half million pound house, 2 other houses, and you name it a good life style – last month I had a second chance and I blew 40k in the space of 4 days – I had 2 suicidal attempts last year but I am now not going to let my demon beat me any more – we cant get cured but we have to take the advice and support and every day is 1 day better – you are not alone my friend – you CAN DO IT…
thought I would share a little of what of has happened in my life – theres also a lot more!!well done for starting again.
Hi Dave,
I too am starting again and have done GA before but we CAN DO IT… for me this place is a great starting place…and not had it before… and its nice to know you and others are going through the same.
You can do it… well done for starting againI have got inspiration from reading your messages and as a newbee I take on board your advice , so if it helps – I believe in what you said – “thought control” – and you did
well done
i believe there needs to be more – more information available to stop these gambling sites taking advantage – anyone who signs up to places like these , their email addresses should be made available to gambling sites so the urge doesn’t get the better of the CG and the gambling sites take more responsibility…
They need to do more – Why is the richest woman in the UK , the owner of gambling sites?
To many excuses for us CG – gambling companies need to made accountable – posters are not enoughits tough and its upsetting to know that I have ruined my life.! A very difficult time today and this weekend, with no money, no food and no fags but I am going to fight , the time keeps running and will continue to run. Soon the weekend will be over and another week starts but the session with Charles and Vera today cheered my belief that I CAN DO THIS… its not easy , its hard and depressing at times , in fact I have been really down but I must continue to fight and I must continue to beat my demon and not give up…. joining the sessions has helped me ….
I am now going to think of a name for my big demon – personalise this evil , so I can tell it to go to hell – I think this will help me for when I do have money and the urge to gamble will play on my mind…
thank you gambling therapy
thanks Vera, it is very comforting to know that people here, the ones who have been where I am, can give me hope that we CAN do this, I CAN DO THIS…. I will not lose hope, although it can be very tough at times,… as you know.
I have opened a thread in MY JOURNAL – you will find it!!… ps. I also wrote a poem and thinking of doing another one for my big demon – I’m going to call it “LET THE BIG DEMON SLEEP AND SLEEP”
No date yet , but will call them on and follow up..
thanks for the support VeraYesterday , i closed my online account that has cost me thousands. THIS IS A START!… i want to tell you this as i start to change my life around – this is the biggest and worst gamble for my – its made my life hell, made me choose it rather than choose socialising with my friends and family and destroyed all what i had – I had no intentions of wanting to close this as i wanted to get my 106,300 back – but that was never going to happen – its done and its not coming back – SOD YOU DEMON , you lost this one….. next is the banning of the bookies – thanks for the help Charles!
I am very thankful for the support this site offers – I really do thank you all… looking forward to joining the new starters tonight!
I am waiting too and reading these messages gives me comfort that we are not alone, cos I do feel like that, very often….
I’m excited too cos I only want to change and get rid of this demon once and for all….. fearful too , so you’re not alone….
I read these messages and being very new to this site I really hope that I have the strength and ability to change my life around = its good to know some people can do it and it gives me strength that I can if I want to and I DO.
thanks