I can totally relate, last month after a few months of not gambling I decided to take out a loan to catch my house payments up, 3 hours later I had lost it all. then made it almost 30 days and again gambled. I am 3 days without a bet, if I don’t get recovery this time I could lose everything, so one day at a time I’m starting over. This is my first post here. I lose my mind when I gamble, it is so weird, if I don’t make that first bet hopefully I can recover from our financial mess I put us in. thanks for the post.