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Not going to lie I have relapsed a few times since this post. I have since started getting councilling sessions via phone calls through a company called necca if anyone has ever heard of it? UK based and quite helpful and it’s free of charge. She has mentioned a few good things finding out my triggers for gambling and also suggesting contacting my WiFi provider and blocking gambling as well as my phone contract company to do the same, all of which has been done as of yesterday so hopefully start of me not gambling as I physically can’t. Thanks for your words jade it’s a tough time knowing you need to stop and the money that is getting wasted but just not been able to, I have realised that you never meet a poor bookmaker and that I’ll only ever loose even if I win ￡1000 I will still end up putting that In Plus ￡500 of my own money, but can only try again. I’ll try keep use updated as it’s good to talk.

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so does it literally just stay on your phone for the year and you have no ways of turning it off? If so I’ll download it now I don’t mind paying if it keeps me away from gambling!

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I’m gunna use this as a journal may give me motivation for me to update every few days or daily with thoughts that way when things go get bad and I get urges I can look back and see how I got through it day by day so why should I ruin that. Think I’ll do it this time got a whole new look on the situation and understand it’s a disease

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Hi mate thanks for the reply. It sounds we are very similar because you have literally just described my addiction in.A sentence. cannot quit whether I am up or behind that is my problem I could be ￡400 up and want to reach that ￡500 mark I don’t know if it is me been money orientated or whether it’s just the addiction wanting more from me? But I do appreciate your comments and I will start to look at it as an allergy, am allergy I have to cut out altogether because it is very harmful a silent killer and I’m determined not to let it get that far, i have had no urge to gamble today and as I said above to another gentleman I am withdrawing all cash and basically abondoning banks in order to beat this! Well done on 12 years that’s a hell of an achievement and I aspire to be were you are now and follow in your footsteps once my debts paid back I will feel a massive weight lifted as this debt is the last thing tying me down to gambling as it’s what got me in this mess. I’ll soldier through it and come out the other side in tact I know I can do it.

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thanks your comment mate really appreciate it. i Have looked into the gambling blocker before but maybe I just didn’t get the right one. I can’t remember what it was called but it was basically a VPN which you could just turn off when you wished and with me not having the will power would turn it off as and when i wish.  would happily pay for a blocker if it literally did what it says on the tin and cut my access to gambling sites. I admire you for staying gamble free for so long and have seen people in much worse positions than me beat the disease and that’s what’s willing me on. Haven’t actually thought of gambling today which is the first time in a long time, I have a bank with Monzo and I have made them put a cooling off period of 1 year on my bank if I wanted to turn gambling transactions back on but just in case there is a slip in the net I am withdrawing every bit of money I get each month and have told all family and friends never to send me money even if I ask or beg as I will never need money in my bank, feel a lot better for it so hopefully this day forward I will never gamble again.

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