[Jagger]

I am a second generation compulsive gambler. I picked up a habit that ruined my dad and which everyone else in my family loathes, my dad was a brilliant resourceful man who lost everything including the love of his family. I have gambled now for over 30 years, I started with playing our local ??poker?? games back in Africa as a young lad. When I graduated college and moved to a big city, I discovered the casinos. I worked hard but lost my earnings, but I was intelligent and I kept rising in the corporate world. Gambling has brought me to rock bottom many times, but I have being able to stop and start all over again, only to get back to a comfortable position and fall again. I have lived in US in the last 3 years due to the fact that one of my children had an accident that led to brain injury and medical facilities to help at home are not available, when it happened I was broke, and only came and incurred tons of debts in hospital bills. So I began to chase the casinos to keep up with the bills. In the beginning it helped but late last year I had large sums of money sent from my home country on behalf of partners who needed procurements. I began to gamble with this money and lost significant sums in 6 figures ruining relatioships and having to sell my house and assets back home to cover the debt. My surety and family back home have being harassed, a few months ago, I got some funds from other business partners as well and I was so broke then I decided to risk t see if I could win a bit and pay back as well as pay some bills, as always initially it worked but now I have lost another 6 figures, ruined my name and reputation, my business is in tatters and I have exposed my wonderful wife and children to ridicule and risks. On one hand, I have some potential projects that can wipe of these debts, but they have long gestation periods that would not be less than 6 months. Meanwhile I have debts that need to be paid right now. I am probably going jump off a bridge as I see no way out. It’s the proverbial ??almost great?? story, and gambling has being my one and only albatross, I have attended GA but it didn’t help me much, what I belive I saw was resignation from many and I wasn’t comfortable. I have fought back from rock bottom at least 5 times, but now I have 3 kids including one with special needs and this time I am not home where I know my way around. Huhhhhhh, I am tired I am in a 17th floor building with a balcony and it all looks so simple to just jump off.

[velvet]

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Hello Jagger and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you?re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you?re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We?re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you?re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

And on that note….

I?m going to hand you over to our community because I?m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you ??

Take care

The Gambling Therapy Team

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[stilltime]

No amount of debt is worth killing yourself over. Hop on the helpline here at gamblers therapy. Please talk to someone. There is hope, the punishment shouldn’t be death. Please talk to someone and do it soon. Reply back please.

[Lynsey545]

I can tell you as a widowed mother of 4 beautiful children, nothing in life is worth taking your own. Your family need you, money always comes back around, but death is final. You have already made the first step, baby steps now my friend. I choose to not gamble today, the sun came up and with it came a little bit of hope. I hope for you to find yours. We are all in the same boat… the waters are a bit choppy but the lifeboats are here, use them please.
LC

[stilltime]

Please get to ground level, find a cafe or something and go to this link.

https://www.gettogethablog.com/en/problem-gambling-support-helpline

This is the helpline here, please talk to somebody first before making a decision. Also, I am a 2nd generation CG.

[Jagger]

Thanks to all who responde to my post. Thanks, for your words of encouragement.

[Auteur]

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