[alliesmum]

So after just over a week of constant gambling I am back and I am finishing up day 2 into recovery!

After my relapse back into the dark world that is gambling I have learned two things –

*I now know 100% in my heart that I no longer want to gamble. I found myself just wanting to loss the money just so I could stop. Yesterday was hard don’t get me wrong but what is harder is having to face what I have done. The money I have lost. The people who have been hurt a long the way. Was I tempted though? Yes, more than once.
*This is affecting my family. My life as a whole and this can no longer happen. I cancelled lunch with a friend so that I could gamble. It may sound silly but at the time I didn’t realize what I was doing. Its only now with a clearer mind that I see that no matter what my excuse was to her I was actually cancelling to gamble. There a days where I would love nothing more than some adult company (hubby works long hours). I see now that my 7 year old son now notices what it is that I am actually doing and my 3 year old daughter likes to sit beside me and watch.

I do not want them to make the same mistakes that I did.

So as I said I am now finishing up on day 2 and what a hell of a 2 days its been!
Higher barriers are now in place and I am now scheduling my days in advance to make sure that I am always doing something. Boredom is a big factor for me.

I hope you all are doing well on your journey!
If your new, take a leap of faith. Give this site a go. Share your story.

[Doofus11]

Was nice talking to you the other day alliesmum. I’m just completing day 3 and never felt more proud of myself. Stay postitve and have the barriers in place and you will succeed if you want it bad enough!! Looking forward to hearing more of your journey to a happier life

[alliesmum]

Hi D.
Thanks for taking the time to read my thread. Was lovely chatting to you too. So glad to hear you’re on day 3. Good for you! You have every right to be proud of yourself – the first few days are always the hardest. Keep it up and hope to hear great things from you!

[i-did-it]

Hi Alliesmum.
I am so glad to see you back and well done on your two days .
Planning is a great idea . It is really hard to stop and stay stopped – but you can do it .
Keep posting Alliesmum- maybe catch u in group later ?

[Auteur]

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