[butchugly]

I’m going to give this a go before I ruin my life. I’ve wasted so much time. Ive tried to stop gambling on my own for three yes now. I’ve only managed for two months once. It takes a hard hit before I can stop myself. But even if I hold off a month or a few weeks I continue feeling crappy about myself. Even if I win I don’t feel happy… Just entitled to win. I know that’s not right, because one time I went bingo with a friend. Someone on another table won ￡50. They looked so happy. I won ￡2000 on online slots and didn’t even react. Just thought I was paying myself back. I’ve forgotten how to feel happy when it comes to winning, cause I spend more time hating myself from losing.
Most of the time, I tell myself you’ll lose anyway, because even if you win, you won’t successfully withdraw the money before losing it. But I still do it!! In the last 6 months.. I have only successfully withdrawn from online casinos twice. What I’ve been doing lately is joining a new site… Lose ￡200-300 then excluding myself. But then there’s always a new site to join up to. I even forget ones that I’ve become a member of. So until I try to register.. And the site tells me I’m already a member. Then I’ll try and login.. Then they’ll alert me that I’m self excluded. It’s ridiculous!! How do I stop it?

[monique]

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Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you?re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you?re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We?re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you?re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

And on that note….

I?m going to hand you over to our community because I?m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you ??

Take care

The Gambling Therapy Team

PS: Let me just remind you to take a look at our
privacy policy and terms and conditions so you know how it all works!

[monique]

I have just posted you the formal welcome message. I hope now you will also get replies from other members who will offer advice, along with emotional support and encourage you to move to a gambling-free life.
You say you have tried to stop on your own for 3 years without success. I think it is very difficult to get free on your own, so I hope you will now make good use of this site – the groups, the helpline and this forum – to gain the support to make your new life possible.
Of course, the biggest part of this is your own determination to stop gambling. Once you are in that frame of mind and have support, you have much to look forward to.
Cast your mind to other things in life, too, that give you some satisfaction and start to build a way of life that has enjoyment in it that has nothing to do with gambling.

I trust you will soon hear from others, too, and I wish you well on your journey.

Monique

[monique]

Hi B
I saw the beginning of this post and thought no one had answered, but now I see you have written more on another thread. That’s good to see that you have had replies and are entering into the discussions, etc. Sorry for the mix-up. Best to just have one thread!
Monique

[butchugly]

Some how I’ve ended up with the same feed twice. I’ve had a little feedback. But regardless it’s nice to be able to voice my thoughts rather than hold it all in.

[Autore]

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