[Callmecrazy]

I am dissatisfied in all aspects of my life and I am a compulsive gambler.

– I despise my job. It’s a toxic workplace 

– I have been single almost all my life but am fairly attractive. I just don’t get what’s wrong with me.

– I have no one to support me.  My parents are both narcissists and have never really shown much interest in me.

– I have been lonely all my life. I have no recollection of ever being held by my mother.

– Today I won by gambling 2200 euro and was so happy. A couple of hours later, I was rushing to the ATM machine. Yes, I went through the whole lot and added another 1000 euro of my own borrowed money.

– I am in financial ruin. 

– I have lost the willpower to struggle further.

– I stood up 4 friends today because I needed to gamble.

– I dread waking up tomorrow.

 

[lizbeth4]

Hi. Welcome to GT. Your description of your life is very similar to mine. Non supportive, narsiccistic Mother. Use this site. I get a lot of support here. There are chat suppirt groups you can jpin. I’ve gone to GA and counseling, which helped. But I get complacent and start gaming again. It’s a very exhausting and tiring addiction. No matter what we win, we always lose that and more! I get the loneliness as I’ve felt that way forever. I guess the answer for us is that we have to love ourselves enough to have a gamble free life! It can be done as others here have done it. Don’t give up.

[lizbeth4]

Find 1 thing everyday that you are grateful for! Anything! It can be a cup of coffee, good weather, your pet, the scenery around nd you. It helps me get through the dark days.

[Callmecrazy]

Thank you for your support.

As I dreaded, waking up was awful. I only have to make it through the day, tomorrow will be better.

[lizbeth4]

I was told that everyday gets better!! And the more gambling time we,have behind us, the journey gets easier. You’re not alone! Please keep posting! Just make it through the day. Tomorrow will be easier.

[Dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

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[Callmecrazy]

I’m having a hell of a morning. I can’t concentrate on work at all. Prior to my binge this weekend, I was 40 days gamble free. I don’t really ***** days.
Not withdrawing my 2200 euro win is something I can’t forgive myself.
Why? Why?Why?
Why didn’t I just click “cool down for 24 hrs”? WHY????

[Nick]

Hi we have all been there and asked ourselves why why why, it’s the addiction ( ADDICTION. ) Write all your positives and negatives in your life down and try to concentrate on the positives , if theres a GA meeting near where you live get to it and meet fellow compulsive gamblers who will support you.

[Callmecrazy]

Yes, we’ve been there , done that. Sometimes I could withdraw, sometimes I couldn’t. Every withdrawal took willpower. It’s so exhausting. I just don’t get my brain. But then again, if I ever withdrew with every time I thought about withdrawing, I would never have climbed up to 2200 euro. The bottom line is, I had a super shitty day. Feeling Guilt, wishing to turn back time, dwelling, fantasizing about stopping a thousand times, having urges to give it another go, cursing myself for blocking my account for 24 hrs, wanting to die, wishing I had millions to gamble as much as I wanted etc… I’m going to turn in early and go too sleep. See how I feel tomorrow…

[Monica1]

Stop the self blame! The compulsive addiction stops us from cashing out. We have all been there a million times. The obsession. The depression caused by the gambling. As soon as we stop one session we think about the next. Just know that we can stop. It is possible but we need to get support to,do so What is lost is lost and we need to accept that and stop and move on, I remember the scheming, if I do this or that it will be different. But it won’t, it never will be. Once we cross the line into compulsive addiction it is progressive in nature and just gets worse aNd worse until we r bankrupt, homeless, insane or commit crime. You can stop, you can do it.

[Berta24449787]

It’s an addiction like all others. I have a nephew whose addicted to heroin. No different than what we are here. You wouldn’t expect him to drop the habit in one day so why are you torturing yourself. It takes time to break the reliance on the high. Miserywill be your company until your brain becomes accustomed to no release from the win. It will happen though. I look forward to waking every morning Not feeling the hangover. No shame feels pretty good. Counting good days instead of bad s very welcome. Don’t do a 24 hour freeze- do it for good. It’s hard but it’s worth it. Just keep trying and find reasons to do other things. Don’t sit home alone because that’s when you will be most vulnerable

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