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Hello everyone,
This is my first time in this forum. First of all I am an addicted. I want to explain myself here but My English is not perfect. I hope you will understand me.

I started to gamble 7 years ago. It was a hobby for me in that time. I was playing small and once a month. Then I learnt about live casinos online. I lost 2000 euros in a week in 2015. And I asked myself ‘what am I doing?’ Then I quited for a while. After that in the begining of 2018 I started with sports betting. I was playing small in the beginning again. But small money didn’t satisfy me enough then I played big and big and bigger till I have no limits in my credit cards. It is about 15.000 euros debts in August 2018. Then I said to myself ‘I really quit this time.’ I played maybe 3 or 4 times from August 2018 till March 2020. I closed all my debts and I had 5.000 euros in my bank account. It looked like I had dealed with that situation. When I thought that a website sent me a Sms about a live casino bonus. 500 euros to 500 euros. I started again and I won 4.000 euros. Then I never played again till the next bonus. Same website sent me same sms in april and I played again and I won 6.000 euros in Blackjack. It looked like I became a winner. I can do it everymonth. But I couldn’t. In May I had started with bonus again and lost. Then I put 1000 euros in my bet account and lost again. I kept doing it till I lost 15.000 euros. Now I have no money and no debts.
I confessed my addiction on Friday and talked to my brother the first time. He understood me and we went to bank. I closed my cards and he supported me. Now I have only 1 card and its limit is 500 euros. I closed my account in that website and I can not open it even if I want for 6 months. I learnt this forum from them.
I feel very bad for 5 days. My brain tricks me like ‘if you play again, you could gain your debt back’. But I know it’s not true. I don’t want to be in same situation like August 2018.
Can you help me guys? How can I stop my addiction. I feel very weak and I lost my self-confidence. I met a new girl but I can not concantrate to cominucate her. My brain always works for gambling in background. How can I stop it?
Thank you for listening.
Huseyin

[dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

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[Steev]

You wrote: “My brain always works for gambling in background.”

Yes, when I was in action, I always had this debate in my head between the part that wanted to just play all the time and the part that wanted to be sensible. It took a very long time to shut down that debate I’m afraid.

What you need to do is make it practically impossible to gamble. You have done well so far – perhaps you could ask your brother to handle your finances whilst you are still fragile. You also need to get as much support for yourself as possible. Most support groups are on-line now – you can check if Gamblers’ Anonymous exists in your country (or another that speaks your first language) or if not check if you can access something through your medic.
Well done on what you have acheived so far. I wish you well!

[Dolly]

I think I heard the story about the potholes, when I was young. Great. I’m finding that instead of potholes I’m trying ways to reach out. Now maybe I’m in the first phase, but I’ve been triggered by my responses, and I have to manage that. So, today I went from gambler to problem, product manager. I know I can’t fix anything, only myself, someone reminded me that I’m more important than any of the problems I have.

[Dolly]

I think I heard the story about the potholes, when I was young. Great. I’m finding that instead of potholes I’m trying ways to reach out. Now maybe I’m in the first phase, but I’ve been triggered by my responses, and I have to manage that. So, today I went from gambler to problem, product manager. I know I can’t fix anything, only myself, someone reminded me that I’m more important than any of the problems I have.

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