[treehead]

I don’t want to alarm anyone with my topic title, but I’m sure my words hit home to many of you. Imagine one day realizing that you had worked your entire life and had nothing to show for it, that you completely ruined the one life God gave you. Imagine the shame and the embarrassment that came with that realization and how, sooner or later, you would no longer be able to hide such a secret from family or friends. That’s where I am. I hate myself to the point I cannot even look at myself in the mirror. In six years, technically I’m supposed to retire, but I’ve nothing to show for all of my work because of my gambling addiction. Yep, completely fucked. I have nobody else to blame but myself. I cannot face my family. I want to believe I can fix this, but who am I trying to fool? Joining this forum is pretty well my only hope. I hope someone reads this just so that I can have a witness, someone to help hold me accountable to myself and my actions, and for the very, very last time, start “Day One” right now (it’s currently August 13, 9:10 PM EST). Please, someone, help me stay on track. I hope one day soon I can be a success story for others who, just like me, are very close to the “edge”. God bless you all and Thank you for listening!

[Dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

And on that note….

I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you ??
Take care
The Gambling Therapy Team

PS: Let me just remind you to take a look at our privacy policy and terms and conditions so you know how it all works!

[Dunc]

Hi Treehead,

Thank you so much for reaching out and sharing what you’re going through. I can tell from your post that things are really tough for you right now, and I want to acknowledge how much strength it takes to express that. Your title certainly caught my attention, and while it’s concerning, it also shows that you’re seeking connection and help, which is a really positive step.

I understand it might feel overwhelming, but by posting here, you’re also letting us know that you’re open to finding another way forward. That’s incredibly important. Could you let me know a bit more about where you’re located—your country, and if you’re in the U.S., your state? I’d like to see if I can point you toward some local resources that might be able to offer the support you need right now.
While these forums are great for sharing and finding support from others who care, sometimes what we really need is more direct help, like therapy, to navigate through difficult times. You’re doing well by reaching out—just keep going, one step at a time. Please share where you are, and I’ll do my best to connect you with some resources nearby.

Take care, and thank you for trusting us with what you’re going through.

[kin]

Hi Treehead,

I just like to say that I have read your post, thank you for sharing.

[Callmecrazy]

Hi Treehead,

I’m in the same boat. I lost 100 k in 4 months playing slots. I did not win anything, climbed up to 2000 euro three times which I eventually lost.

My entire life gone. Apart from loosing the money, I am even angrier of the injustice of it all. 100 k not even one hand over 2000 euros.

I’m in the process of ending my life, putting my affairs in order. I have no family, no job, no career, only an endless history of trauma and abuse.

I worked very hard all my life, for the company I worked for, for my parents -catering to their whims until their dying breaths (and they didn’t really care much about me, only what I could do for them), for my employer that overworked me to the point I couldn’t handle it anymore and quit.

As the last nail to my coffin , I gave 100 k to a casino that gave me absolutely nothing.

Everyday I wake up with disgust and wish not to be here and I won’t be much longer.

Today I’m taking my friend on a shopping spree for her birthday. I’ll buy her whatever she wants, it’ll be my goodbye to her but she won’t know.

[iamhere]

Callmecrazy,

My heart ached reading this. I really hope you don’t do this. Your life Is worth living. ??

[kellie28]

Hi Callmecrazy, I honestly sympathise with your story, I have spent so much money on gambling these past few months, whilst i think there are clearly other issues going on in your life, just remember that money comes and goes, you can make back the money and you can take back control in your life. Remember life is not a marathon, you are 35 and remember this moment in your life because this time next year your life could be totally different. There are support groups out there. I really really hope you can get the help you so deserve, it’s never too late

[Auteur]

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