[FM]

Hi Guys,

I am new to this forum and really down at the moment recently lost ￡1000 and still cant believe what i have done, i am not in debt or any other financial crisis but still cant get over it.

The story begins in October 2014 when one of my friend took me to the casino i played slot machine and lost ￡20 that day then come back and register online with online casino and the same night again lost about ￡120.

It was shocking for me but did not learn from it and start playing to recover the money luckily i was ￡202 better off from my loses and i stopped gambling in March 2015.

In Jan 2016 again one of my friend took me to the casino this time i was confident that i will not play but as soon as i entered in the casino i started playing slot machines and lost ￡20 again.

That night i come back but did not panicked but still kept thinking the ￡20 which i lost, two day after i start playing online and recover the money , one thing to mention that i kept writing my losses and profits.

My strategy was if i win small amount i quit and withdraw the money, since Jan 2016 till 16 April i made profit of ￡750 from betting through slot and online roulette.

Past few weeks i was feeling anxiety when waking up in the morning i dont know it was because of gambling or other thing, i contacted my doctor and she gave me some anxiety tabs which i took after midnight 17th April and start playing casino that night i made ￡70 then quit and withdraw the money.

The same morning on 17th when i woke up i was feeling very different due to anxiety tablet which i took earlier also feeling dizzy and feeling like drunk and in that condition i start playing again.

I put ￡50 in hope if i make little bit profit will quit but this time i did not happen and lost all then i put ￡100 again and lost then ￡400 again lost then ￡500 and when i only have ￡160 left in my account that time i told my wife that what i have done she immediately stopped me and asked me to withdraw the remaining money which i did.

I don’t know if this happened due to anxiety tab (which i stopped due to side effects) or maybe i was addicted to gambling but now i cant cope with it i cant believe what i have done.

I was very confident that if i play sensibly and leave when winning then i will never lose again also since Jan 2016 till 16th April i was very lucky i always got away with it and quit when in profit but back in mind i always thinking that one day some thing gonna happen very bad.

I am very good with money and always keep my accounts up to date but the blunder i made on 17th April i cant get rid of these feelings which urges me to play again and get lost money back, i know there are thousands in the same situation, its a lesson no matter how long you winning at the end of the day you going to give it back.

[charles]

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Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

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[Adam26]

As someone who started small myself I can safely say that you’ll only progress to greater things. I started off on twenty quid here and there and moved onto losing 8 grand in 20 minutes. 20 grand in total. Trust me when I say this, your money is gone. You’ll never get it back. It’s best to just write it off and learn from this mistake. After a week or so the urges will start to digress. You just need to be strong my friend.

[FM]

Hi Adam,

Thanks for your encouragement, i am glad you got over it after losing 20 grands you must have very strong will power. As i recently lost which is the biggest money i lost in one day in my life despite being very sensible while playing only occasionally , my mind just not accepting this loss. I arranged my counselling session hopefully a positive step for good

[FM]

4th day could not control start playing again with anxiety and depression started with ￡20 and nearly lost all when only ￡7 left and thinking about quitting but could not and took the risk continue playing and ended up winning ￡3 more total ￡23 and withdraw the money. Not the good sign

[FM]

Been one week since my big loss, apart from playing once, i did not play anymore, been to ga meeting was good experience. The fight is on and will keep fighting.

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